Oh how much I want to spill what's on my mind, but I fear I will hurt someone. I don't want to be read as an open book, though they all say it's good to let it out. Do you not understand yet, that I still feel it? That I still remember? Do you not know, that I can recall every word ever spoken by you? The human mind, oh how easily one can forget everything. How it felt, how it still feels. I'm quite proud of myself, that I can hide so well. It has been a while now, and I have gone unnoticed. You don't care enough, that if you look deep inside my eyes, you might find the truth. Oh how I lie everyday, so convincingly. Some things I don't bother to hide, but others... yes, others. Others I don't want to be read. You know, I really thought you were different. That you understood. Maybe for the first time, I was wrong. There's a first for everything, correct? Not long ago, I was told by a friend something that brought me to tears. I look down in shame for being so weak. Have you realized, that my eyes are always cast down each time it happens? I am no longer talking about crying, of course. The pain that rushes through my heart like a flood, it makes feel so stupid, because I can never let go, no matter how hard I try. Why, I ask myself. Why do I have to be so selfish? Remember, when we were inseparable? Now we are as apart as the continents, still the same soil, but getting farther away from one another. I see you pretend to care, but please stop. You're just wasting your time. You pretend that you understand, the way I feel, the way I act. But no. You do not know what is going on in my head. You never really tried to. Just the false curiosity. The false anxiety. The false worry....

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I think I may have written too much, but I had to get it out someway. Just something I've been meaning to write for a while. Needed to update anyway.
Well, I've been working on a poem... okay, technically I started it in French class and never finished as the bell rang (there goes my inspired moment)... but it's still incomplete and I have no idea what to add to it. I think I'll post it and let you tell me what I should add.

I've been so busy and I haven't gotten time to reply to any of my messages; I am so sorry to those of you who are still waiting for one! I promise I'll get to it, but you'll just have to wait a little longer. I just had to rant and that's the only reason I got on here; I'd be doing my homework now if I hadn't. Just wanted a little break and now i have to get back to it, as it's already late and I still have much to do. Once again, I am truly so sorry!

I'll leave you with an excerpt from my favourite series:

'What's that? Said one of the twins suddenly, pointing at Harry's lightning scar.
'Blimey,' said the other twin. 'Are you –?'
'He is,' said the first twin. 'Aren't' you?' he added to Harry.
'What?' said Harry.
'Harry Potter,' chorused the twins.
'Oh, him,' said Harry, 'I mean, yes, I am.'

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Wow that is a lot I wrote...